I had my first drink at the age of 14. It did not take long for me to fall in love with the feeling of being drunk. After a long week of school, drinking became…

At the start of my senior year of high school, my family and I moved from a cookie cutter, suburban neighborhood where I  had grown up to a small town in the middle of nowhere.…

Decompensation: Psychology, a loss of ability to keep up normal psychological defenses, sometimes resulting in depression, anxiety, or delusions. Dictionary.com One of my favorite literary descriptions of a psychiatric decompensation is in the 1933 short…

Learning to understand who I was, why I felt and thought the way I did, it was the hardest journey of my life. Making the milestone to then accept every part of me, was liberating.…

It seems impossible to me that there was a life before these sleepless nights and automated days. Where I was not plagued by my own mind, poisoned by myself. Yet, I know there was. Generally,…

“People think depression is sadness. People think depression is crying. People think depression is dressing in black. But people are wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotions, being numb…

I am complicated, at least, that’s what people say when they first get to know me. My brain, it doesn’t ‘function’ in a neurotypical way. It’s hard to explain why, not because I don’t understand…

When I first started this blog, the platform was and continues to be, “living with Dissociation, Anxiety, and PTSD”. It’s what I was diagnosed with when working with my helping professional years ago, and what…