Matt Pappas

I grew up in a beautiful suburb in New Jersey. Had two parents who loved me unconditionally and raised me with morals and values that would set anyone up to be successful at life. I…

Imagine that your day starts not as normal as everyone else’s, but like a daily fight with your own mind and your own thoughts. Most people don’t understand how difficult it is to deal with…

I have to get something off my chest. I am a “nice guy”. Let me rephrase that. No, not just a nice guy, I am a person with the “nice guy syndrome”.  Let me explain.…

I had my first drink at the age of 14. It did not take long for me to fall in love with the feeling of being drunk. After a long week of school, drinking became…

At the start of my senior year of high school, my family and I moved from a cookie cutter, suburban neighborhood where I  had grown up to a small town in the middle of nowhere.…

“People think depression is sadness. People think depression is crying. People think depression is dressing in black. But people are wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotions, being numb…

I am complicated, at least, that’s what people say when they first get to know me. My brain, it doesn’t ‘function’ in a neurotypical way. It’s hard to explain why, not because I don’t understand…

When I first started this blog, the platform was and continues to be, “living with Dissociation, Anxiety, and PTSD”. It’s what I was diagnosed with when working with my helping professional years ago, and what…