Matt Pappas

So, one of the things I was thinking about on the way home from a therapy session, my 2nd of this week, was a question surrounding my incessant need to embrace flashbacks… Left therapy session tonight with a…

Often times in my weekly sessions, I talk about how these feelings of poor self esteem, anxiety, flashbacks, worry, being a victim, feeling damaged,  seem to never go away. Will they ever subside, will I…

One of the things I’ve been struggling with in recent months is why I feel this need to hang on to the past trauma. Why do I want to keep reliving the pain, trying to…

  Last night might have been one of the worst attempts at sleeping that I think I’ve experienced in a very long time. Normally I don’t have much of a problem crashing out at night.…

  So, one of the things that we’ve covered in my therapy sessions in recent months since really diving into my past trauma as a child, is at some point being able to have more…

This is something I think about often, especially when thinking about the flashbacks that I have from the childhood sexual trauma.  By the way, it took me a long time to even be able to…

So yesterday was a therapy session for me, admittedly one of the events each week that I look forward to the most, next to seeing my kids. When your therapist is such a lifeline for you and…

I think that’s the worst feeling of all, but interesting how in my tracker sheet over the last few weeks, I haven’t used that feeling until today. Why is that?  Maybe because it was just so…